How is That Supposed to Make Me Feel?

Recently a Texas newspaper released an article incriminating a man who I looked up to. I always thought of him as a hero, a good man, and a mentor. He was also a Sexual Predator who molested two 14 year old girls 30 years ago. The title of this first blog is “How is That Supposed to Make Me Feel?” because I don’t have an answer to that question right now. Right now I want to be angry, I want to hold a grudge, I want to feel something more towards this man other than disappointment. That’s my human side demanding that I be furious with this man, but I can’t give into that feeling and neither should you.

Matthew 7:3-5 says, “Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye.” The moment that I was told about what had occurred all those years ago this passage came to me. I realized that I can’t sit in judgement of this man who had been a hero to me up until that point. I looked up to this man as a good Godly example for 6 years. The thought occurred to me that in order to sit in judgement of this man I, myself, had to sit in judgement. And if I indeed was able to sit in judgement towards this man what would I think or say? It is simply not my place to judge this man.  What he did was sinful, he knows that, I know that, you know that, and saying that isn’t the kind of judgement that the Bible warns against. There is a difference between biblical judgement and worldly judgement lets not forget that. I find that too often people say that judging is bad and the Bible is against it. This is not entirely true because the Bible calls us to call others out if they are indeed living in sin. That is the difference in Biblical judgement and Worldly judgement. For references you could look at John 7:24, 1 Corinthians 5:11-13, and/or Romans 12:9

Anyways that tangent is over, another thing that came to mind were the times that I myself sinned. My sins are not the same as what this man did, but God looks at all sin as the same. Murder is just as detestable to God as lying to your child telling them that a fat man in a red suit brings them presents if they are good. If I want to be the man that God wants me to be I have to be able to look at this man and realize that even though he messed up I have messed up a plethora of times too. I have to be able to love this man even though he has committed something that I find utterly detestable.

My final thought came to mind just recently. This newspaper article has come out a week before I depart on my trips for the summer. This could very well be an attack on me, trying to discourage me and hinder my spirit as I prepare to go out. To be honest with you this is probably one of the softest spots I have, both the person involved, whom I’ve explained is a personal hero, and the act that they committed, but I won’t let it dampen my resolve as I finish getting ready to leave for the summer. Instead I plan on the opposite happening, I feel more convinced that I am going where I am supposed to and I feel as though this has strengthened my resolve.